my whole life I thought when I’d grow up
my mom would die from work
seeing her work so hard made me shy from work
meanwhile she’d cry for me
I’d cry for her as she cried at work
missing her so bad I cried for her
now here I am reaping her fruits
ding my best to let her know that I’d die for her
and rather die with her
before I ever die from work

a troubled kid of a single mother
doomed by double shifts
accustomed to the distance
thinking this is as good as loving gets
hoping one day that something gives
and then it did…
you got a promotion
moving up to a director role
all the time you put in to protect your own
this is our chance to resurrect our home
never thought I’d see us together alone
under the same roof
and I have gratitude now because I chose to never let go
so let’s see how far these blessings can go

after twenty-plus years
feeling as if nothing could come between us here
you are the happiest you’d ever been
this joy you deserve it
for all your days of working
and all that pain from hurting
that’s why these days there’s nothing for you I wouldn’t purchase
I’d give you the world
because you are worth it

@anthonyhymn || we’ve come a long way, mom

memories of
elated feelings
inflated dreaming
then your world bursts
nothing but pain
you could have everything taken away from you
by the one to give you the world first
nothing but pain
it’s safe to say that words hurt

@anthonyhymn

when you’ve grown in a space not meant for you
what do you intend to do?
nothing left to prove
simply committing to endeavors
no longer plentiful
i will hold no longer
i know there is much more offered
i owe it to me
i love myself with so much honor
everything that leaves
will eventually land
everything that runs
will eventually return
despite how lost i may feel
i am found repeatedly
i am only here because
i have came from nothing
so there is only more
even if i came with nothing
i keep an open mind
that stays attached to nothing
i cease to wear my hands
letting go and moving forward
this where i stand
and right now the only word is
onward

@anthonyhymn || onward ii

nothing much in this world
that could prevent me from hurting
besides this art — it gives myself reassurance
fear is what kept me from earthing
fear is what kept me from birthing
but i know the universe has dealt me a purpose
naive at times wishing i had a clue
now there is nothing i’d rather do
i can’t eat my cake and have it too
yet i find myself loving things as they are
while lusting for more
i do best to keep an optimist’s attitude
everything lost is met often with gratitude

take the time to sit your heart and listen to all its blues
you’ll find everything comes back to you in solitude
and when things get hard and pressure develops
i remember why i’m here
and show my messaged enveloped
in hopes to release
all the pain that ever made a tear drop
in hopes to bring peace
to every thought and make your fears stop
i’m not here for worthy impressions
i’m here to see that my journey successes
despite the times fear has brought me to a cold stop
i’ll remain driven — even if the road stops

@anthonyhymn

why do i choose to hold on?
when there’s nothing i could lose if i go on
it’s not that i fear you
but tearing that band-aid off me
will be your band-aid i tear too
meaning it’s pain for us both
but we can’t stray from our growth
it doesn’t feel like at this stage we are close
and i don’t want to continue feigning with hope
i always forgive
i love so much even if i don’t say it the most
because i admit it is courageous to show
i want you to see the difference between
all the things i take away and withhold
you can see the days we live old
and i can’t see a way you let go
so which way do we go?
i want you to make due without me
a new life that consists of you without me
because life will always go on
with or without you
onward

@anthonyhymn || onward i

noble to the dreams that i live for
hopeful for the peace that i wish for
give more love in all that i do
open up to all i could lose
i’ve hit the point
where i straddle the lines of risk and disappointment
scared to miss a point of opportunity
now embracing my prime
but this part of life is truly new to me
between you and me
the other side looks hazy
everything is a maybe
just the mere image of what i’ve become or could be
i’ve been pushing once life had begun to push me
i had to leave life’s confusion at bay
because i found myself praying for retribution some day
some days i hate anticipation
yet everything i ever had came from delayed gratification

@anthonyhymn