when i search for balance
solitude is my fuel
living by self-love, pardon my creed
see i’d rather keep silent than to spar with my speech
closeted thoughts with my heart on my sleeve
but pain is progress, each scar is a seed
forward moving no matter how far i can’t see
resilience is hard to defeat when you’ve felt more
than you’ve ever seen
that’s why i channel everything to being a better me
a stroke of humility, rarely have i petted greed
give all that i can now and worry later about a pedigree
reliable most say they could bet on me
and if they can’t that’s a bet to me
do right then let it be
so when i search for balance
let me go then let me be

A. Hymn || 10/7/2016

living in my mind
the only place where moments spin back
now at a stage in my life where my growth could be graphed
but i let go of the past and everything holding me back
i’d usually think about all the sad days someone told me to laugh
i felt things as the pen chose me to act
then i wrote my way out of pain when it probed me to emote
letting prose be the path
every single note allowed the old me to stand
it means nothing to take from those who only give back
so that same hope for me is hope you don’t need a plan
it’s hope we withstand
and hopefully with that
we can hopefully last

i think about all those close to me passing
and i’m reminded love is supposed to be lasting
not the last thing

A. Hymn || 10/3/2016

now unveiling feelings that pretend to be
the feelings that can fake
matured to where i’m aware of the energies that can take
more concerned for myself
i have my reservations
setting boundaries to stand by preservation
just to avoid falling victim to love’s precarious seasons
because
love can make you fall for various reasons
that don’t seem apparent in person
love can make you a daring person
love can make you a caring person
love can even make you think you can repair a person
when being there for a person
doesn’t mean everywhere for a person
because being there for yourself
allows you to be anywhere for a person
allows you to be a better pair with a person
as i was once told
love should be fair and full of purpose

A. Hymn || boundaries in love & attachment