i’ve proven to myself that i was right about you
yet here i am
pen to pad as i write about you
transient as you fade
i’ve lived a life without you
meanwhile you never truly leave even if i allowed you
it’s not like you to prefer to end things
maybe that’s what the universe intended
maybe that’s how it all plays out
separating the past from present
with many less words to say now

A. Hymn || acceptance

i suppose life can even make wise men fools
see i never once felt i could confide in you
maybe it’s the distance
maybe it’s a disconnect
but despite all the things that i’ve been through
i’ve got so many words to say
and it’s just myself that i write them to
while your actions make me reconsider what nice friends do

yet i reconsider love and second chances
just one more song to get a second dance in
hopefully once the music stops things will balance
maybe then thinking about you wouldn’t make me anxious
just know i don’t worry because i’m scared
i worry because i care

A. Hymn || just know

empty hands
worked hard for everything i have
always forced to face everything i can’t
so whenever i fall and things come crashing down
i make sure to admire the structure
let failure turn you into your deepest lover

i had always been used to comparing myself
now i know what it feels to be aware of myself
prepared with what’s dealt
i am all i own
the only one i call my own
yet sometimes this road seems bleak
i feel like turning back with how much i long for home
but i see how far i’ve come
and then i long for more

now all grown up yet disconnected with my inner child
but willing to give more
the distance i lived with is the same distance i live for
just know when i’m carving out my space
i would give you the whole universe and all of outer space
because there are two kinds of friends in this world
the ones you heard
and the ones you hurt

A. Hymn || 7/19/2016