It’s usually the simplest of things that remind me of you
See I tried to love you
I wouldn’t let anything pry me from you
But you
Then it was your fears and your doubts
About whether we were close enough
Nothing could ever wedge between
All those memories
I thought it was meant to be
Just the both of us

Meanwhile it’s hard to say if I’ve moved on
I miss you and think about your whereabouts too
See I don’t care as much about us as I care about you
It doesn’t have to be me and you
It could be no more us
I just want you to see it through
Understand I seldom act selfishly
I just wanted the best for you
Yet I can’t help you see
And it hurts me knowing I hurt you
I never thought you’d react to selfless deeds
And when things aren’t going swell for me
I’ll even wish you well for me
Good health, your wealth and needs
Because I rather not see you sit next to me in pain
Regardless if things will ever be the same
I want you to be happy without me in your life
With hopefully new found meaning in our lives
Because they say you are never without those you loved
More distance just means we lose touch
So even if you forget about me
Don’t forget who you are
Once you’ve moved on

I figure all my hope will make the rain clear
See I loved and lost in the same year
So there isn’t much I can do but change gears
Keep pushing
Do anything but the same things
Do anything but remain here
There’s nothing left for me to say
I just put all that love in its place
Made her feel safe
Then I got over it
Then I got over it
And moved on

A. Hymn || Move On

I wish I could’ve gone with you
I wish it was me instead of you
Just know that I feel inseparable

I wasn’t ready
Too many things to process at once
I went cold but forgot about the shock that would come
I had to stop with the fronts
No matter how much we talked about the reality
Nothing prepared me to feel
You cared so much about so many things
We shared everything
I was living vicariously
Hoping with all that time cherished — you’d heal
I wish I could’ve felt how much you were hurting
I’d own your plight and take away your worries
Yet I know this is your journey
I let go and sat despite it
But that just made everything worth sacrificing
Just to give back your life
Just to bring back your niceness
Just to sing you peace of mind
Just to cure and reset
Just so all those tears can relent
Removing all your fears and forget

I wish I could’ve gone with you
I wish it was me instead of you
Just know that I feel inseparable

And yet you pushed me away
Regardless I understand how it goes
You’re a star; you deserve ultimate space
And a volume of love your ears can’t hold

A. Hymn || Inseparable

Bridges will burn
We fall out of our rhythm
Victims of cyclical hurt
The distance instills guilt
Reminiscing at what feelings once were
Numb to feeling one’s worth
Passion dissipates when bridges get burned

Looking back at times I caused your pain
I sometimes wish for one more call again
Rectify it all and make it all the same
And if I never love again
I’ll have a heart full of peace
So it’s hard to not care when the feelings are close
Funny how we often learn love from those who need it the most
You know I could see your hurt but despite it
You put up a facade
Meanwhile I took my heart and soul
And placed it into the person behind it
My full support and love
I will always applaud you
But remember it was you that set the stage
So if you take the roses home
Make sure to clean up the tomatoes too

Bridges will burn
We fall out of our rhythm
Victims of cyclical hurt
The distance instills guilt
Reminiscing at what feelings once were
Numb to feeling one’s worth
Passion dissipates when bridges get burned

Telling you how I feel would be worth it
That’s what they said
Yet you put me through so much
That I could love and hate you in the same breath
But I want better for you
You have to learn on your own
It’s wrong for you to be dependent
So my hands will stay open
I just refuse to extend them
Being cold to you makes me shiver inside
Meanwhile the idea of me leaving makes you quiver inside
The bridges you burn can’t dam the rivers you cried
Because when your spirits were low
It was me that delivered you pride
So keep running away
I hope you find what you are looking for
Just remember
That we’re bound to lose what we leave behind

Bridges will burn
We fall out of our rhythm
Victims of cyclical hurt
The distance instills guilt
Reminiscing at what feelings once were
Numb to feeling one’s worth
Passion dissipates when bridges get burned

A. Hymn, Bridges

Curse of a brave heart
Emotions and thoughts
Constantly running into each other
So I search til the pains gone
Looking for the purpose, the payoff
Scaling the well
Trying to surface the chaos
So much hurt but can’t say all that I feel
My world shattered
My words scattered
Sometimes it gets hard to believe
Even harder to breathe
A rough patch from scarring too deep
Karma could you please
Give me a sign
Let me rest, let me resign
I miss you, I miss you
Hoping you carry all of your thoughts
With me inside
You picked me to silence the cold
Exile your woes
Whether it’s goodbye or you coming home
I find myself wishing you both

I had so much to give you — you know?
All you needed to do was hold on
But circumstances change
People change and so on…

In a state of love
In a state of addiction
A lot of habits to grow out of and see past
And right now
We can’t afford to relapse
Because we consumed
We indulged in each other
Just copious
You chose me then
Now you propose we spend time apart
Suppose that the space between us is appropriate
I just hope you can cope with it
Because right now
We can’t afford to relapse

So it’s probably for the better
At least for the time being

That’s what I keep telling myself

That it’s probably for the better
At least for the time being

A. Hymn

These days
I’ve been having a hard time
Discerning between right and love
As I fight my gut
My gripes become ingrained
Yet I write because I hate this feeling
Maybe I need to let go
See — you pushed me away
So many words, I wonder if you meant those
But did they hurt because I let it?
Or because you said so?
I love you so much
My warmth would remain for you even if hell froze
I know that I’ve moved you
I could care less where it is that you move to
But I couldn’t come close to removing you
And that same hurt you put on me
I wouldn’t dare put on you
Now you’re wanting me back
All because you want to be back
My love for you comes first
But how long does your honesty last?

I’m listening, tell me…

A. Hymn

i hate that we have chemistry. i hate that i knew how to make you laugh. smile. i hate that i understood you so well. i hate that i cared about you. i hate i showed you compassion. patience. i hate that i was the one you chose. i hate that i knew how to love you in the way you needed. i hate all these things because they made letting go the hardest. with all that being said. i will always have love for you.

A. Hymn || they say hate is a strong word, but so is love

How it feels to live with regrets
Witness the effects when you’re invested
As indifference just sets in
I guess things won’t be the same
Maybe it’s too late
The mind remembers what the heart can teach
I’ve learned to know when I’m needed
That’s why I’m averse to extending further than arm’s reach
I’m inhabited by oceans and a calm breeze
I know you could feel it
Saying you were lucky to be healing
Having had your anxieties soothed
Ingratiated by emotional grooves
But I get emotional too
Your actions made me feel disposed
So I put up a front for all the things I can’t get back
In spite of all the feelings I hate set backs
We kept going in circles
So maybe it’s right to say things ran its course
So who’s got the bigger chip?
What’s the baggage score?
I don’t even know which one of us is damaged more
Riddled with open wounds
But it’s much harder to bandage gore
Fighting out of desire for each other
Fueling a famine war
Struggling to find food for thought
But all I can taste of you is liquor for soul
I care about my sobriety
I’ll let you go the next time you say bye to me
Or maybe it’s too late

A. Hymn, Too Late